过客还是痕迹

你会是我生命中的过客？ 还是会是我生命中的痕迹与记录？
我不懂你的想法  当然我不觉得你真的懂我
我尝试跟你交流  可我感觉不到你对我有多大的兴趣

我从来都不是主动的人  但我觉得我踏出去了一大步  比较主动
十指紧扣  对你来说是什么意思？
超正常？ 跟谁都可以？
还是  你对她有别的想法？

期望不能太高
因为往往期望越高  失望就越大
就这样埋着  迟早也会有漏洞

我还是希望  如果你对我没兴趣
  请闪开  最好不要在我面前出现

但暂时就这样吧
人是会累的

Night

I can't imagine how am I overcome this kind of feeling again and again 

No one U can really talk to 

No one I can find 

No one I can speak out 

I need a pair of ear with me along my life 

It was first time I stay alone in hostel, not because of scare to be alone, but is scared of the feeling

When I'm down, I found no one can talk to 

When there are someone there, at least I can find something to say and release that kind of feeling.

People always think that I'm strong as always. But I'm also a human being, girl. 

There will always a soft part of me that not showed to public. 

Can I cry ? as I know this is not my style

Got the feeling so strong, BUT how to cry?