The first time i have a Day that i don like it

Why I hv exam on next day...
I wanna hide somewhere..
But now, I can't.
I feel the stress as the day coming nearer and nearer..
and the word UNHAPPY in inside my deep heart..
how..

I donwan celebrate that day..
I donwan any special on that day
That's NOT my day!
its only a study day..

     I wish that day will not coming!
It memorized me how hurt that I get from the past.
Every ppl felt excited of that day
Sorry, im not..


So, leave me away.. Birthday =')

就想这样做,,,

我,,, 有股冲动
想在生日当天不让人找到 ;')

前一年的那一天, 对我真的影响很深
我不想再次度过像上次一样的生日
我, 不想过生日

就,,,就这样吧 :')

突然发现... :')

突然发现我真的真的很丑
人又肥,脸又不好看,真的很丑
哈哈! :,,(  
难怪会没人喜欢
以往,觉得自己丑时  都习惯用不同不同的理由去骗自己
现在, 才知道,自己是真的丑
我现在真的没了信心
我... 已经不知道....信心, 是什么了

Excited... waiting..

Today was my last semester exam in sem 1 year 1
Quite excited that im going finish my sem 1 so soon...
Am waiting for 22 August for few months... waiting for the day to come...
Lastly is just tomorrow!! So excited!!! XD
Wad are thier response? ?  It will be amazing scene.. haha!
Wait for me.. 22 August!

Joke?

I hate ppl make joke on me..
Are u playing?
Or is that real?

U make me so confused...
If that is real, y nt that ppl tell me himself? 
If that's fake,  stupid!  Play this kind of thing.. u think that's very fun izit!
Walao!!!><..  troublesome! !  

mood become very low....

suddenly in bad mood.. but donno y
wan to find a fren to talk to..
but cant find anyone..
feel so emo for no reason...
nobody beside me that can really listen to me...

everybody gt his/her own new life..
everybody busy about their own thing..
can i run out of this mood?
really feel something wrong...

actually.. i already get a lot:)

not every time god give us every things..

not every time god take away every things from us..

god is balancing our life..

they gv us something, n of course..take away somethings..

in the past 1 year.. god gv me every good things (i think so)

-gv me a lot of good friend, that can play together, hang out together, crazy together, laugh together

most probably were my super lovely best fren>> jess, yi wen, jia qing 

motor + best fren gang>>tsu yang, chia zheng, jia qing, kess

pbsm gang>>amy, vivian, piek shean, yi ling, jiu shan,

girls gang>> alot! LOL

-gv me a lot of fun in my secondary school..gathering, pbsm, pengawas

in 2012...really, god treat me nt bad..

comes to 2013..

god still gv me something.. 

gv me a chance to continue my study in singapore..

gv me a chance to met new fren.. frm different country, different state

but i still cant met a really good fren at here.. 

good fren that can always 'stick' together..

good fren that very cincai..

my roommates nt badn were a nice guys! really...

but not 'ngam' my key..

come here almost 3 months..

i still can feel the stranger btw us..

donno y.. 

but nvm! i believed god will treat every one equally..

maybe now god never gv me this..

maybe god will gv me another things.. 

hope all the things go smoothly :)

add oil! <3

miss..

the second week im at singapore...started school.. started the college life wif the assignment, presentation, tutorial, lecture classes.... the strong feel strangeness to me...

i started miss my home, miss all my family, mum, dad, brothers n a lot of them..
including my best friend in malaysia,
 jessica,jia qing, pei li, sunny, oh guai, pek shean, amy, steam fish, tsu yang, chia zheng......n othersss!
now my mind is emerged these friend's name,,,
i miss the moment that u guys 'shoot' me together...
the moment that i made a lot of funny n acted the stupid actions to let u guys laughed.. i like to make fun for those who around me
i let u guys 'shoot' me,, nt because of i love at that.. nt because of the weakness of me...
IS BECAUSE i appreciated the friendship!
i wanna continually cherish the friendship that i got all of that..

i donno whether wad can i do now...
can i overcome all the pressure, stress, feeling that i get now?|
my mind is questioning me...
will i? can i? shall i?
the feeling that i never had beforeee.....
how i supposed to do?